NeverBroken You Begins
Believe me, I am among those who have, at many times in my life, cried, screamed, pleaded, please help me, mend me, fix me. And people can help, or at least seem to. Animals can help. Alcohol, substance, food can seem to…for a short time, then hinder. Bottom line is you are not broken. You only think you are. And I feel you. I totally feel you. I have the scars. I’ve been on the floor, a bottle of wine beside me. I have been numb, hurt, broken, beyond. I have been abused, scared, scarred, duped, fooled, foolish, stupid, emasculated, shattered, buried, ground in, and walled. Pick a word. Pick two. But all these things that happened to me, happened to ME. And I’m still here, in this heart and in this head. So I am not broken. I am here. I just need to remember, to know, that I AM HERE. And I am not alone, no matter how alone I feel. But only I can fix me.
We must tell our stories, get them out there. But then don’t dwell. Tell it, but don’t let it be your script, your dominant story, or broken record. Don’t let it replay your life in that way. Push it away. Even if you tell it, make it a lesson-giver, not a dwell or a diatribe. You are better than this. You deserve better than this.
Don’t let someone’s negative seed plant itself inside your soul. That’s on them. Not you. It’s not about you. Let the pain hurt. Let the sadness run its course. But then let it go when the time comes. Don’t let them “win.” I say win with quotes because it’s not about winning or losing. No one is winning here, no one, even if it feels like it. There is a difference. With the winning and losing script, it is still about them or the thing that is keeping you down. But it’s not. This is about you and you being personally triumphant, apart from them or the thing you thought might have had you defeated. If you let yourself allow light in and see yourself for how strong you are and will be, YOU will shine for YOU, and will be the brightest you could ever become.
So…where does that take us next? On a journey. A good one. Easy and hard. All yours. But, here, let me be your bridge.