What have I done?
I have crossed the world for amazing things
I have come to find myself.
I have left mediocrity
I have left Pennsylvania
I have moved to California
I have been an innkeeper
I have been a manager
I have rolled with chaos
I have taken hits
I have been worn out
I have fallen off the wagon
I have gotten back on again
I have found new places
I have made new friends
I have lost new friends
I have negotiated and lost
I have stood up for myself
I have tried to save someone
I have made stupid decisions
I have thrown in the towel
I have put myself first
I have put my kids first
I have gotten angry
I have gotten desperate
I have
I have been down
I have been in dire straights
I have been alone
I have been in ridiculous circumstances
I have been in need
I have been lower than low
I have felt alone
I have been elated in my aloneness
I have become independent
I have needed companionship
I have needed to feel young again
I have found my sexuality
I have lost it again
I have become a recluse in my busy-ness
I have relocated
I am in Washington
I have gotten here
But I am still struggling to believe, to find myself
I have fought against oppression
I have felt the walls closing in
I am trapped
But I am free
I have no easy way out
I have no visible way out
I am lost
I am insecure
I am alone
I am strong
I fight battles all the time
I have hope
I will win
I will be bigger
I have goals, ambitions, fierce dreams
I have hope